Blogs are dangerous and crazy. That said, i should try and embrace that sentiment. The focus and work i have been putting into so many things seems to be counterproductive. At least it seems to me at the moment. My great and grand "blah blah blah" of community and care seems trite to me and empty when i am so grind stone nose shaving. Even after i have tried so hard, in myriad ways to open this up and include others in the process. Ask for assistance and others perspectives. i still feel so dang alone in this. It sucks.
Just plain sucks. i try to convince myself that this is just a typical period when creative vision blinds one and at the same time leads one forward. This too is not what i wanted. No siree bob.
Is it so scary? Am i so scary? Scary in the audacity? Scary in the complicatedness and complexity? Of the seeming chaos? My definition of CHAOS is: Chaos is not disorder, it is one's inability to percieve the order.
i am often called crazy. What is attached to that label varies. There is an old adage something like: To be crazy in an insane world is healthy. There are probably several variations on that one.
Well yes for most of my life i have been working towards a world, a culture, a cosmology in which i was me; in which i am able to be and thrive and rejoice at it all with everybody else being able to do that too.
It is crazy in a world in which violence of great variation and scale is embrace not only as outward tools of LAW & ORDER but also as tools of liberation. i mean this beyond the "us" (the good guys) vs "them" (the bad guys) but also the violence we allow ourselves to tolerate towards each other in the "us" (the good guys) while we confront the "them" (the bad guys).
As a counter to the "us" vs "them" i have been offering "we". "We"ing is the process of recognizing oneself as part of something larger without that having to exclude anyone else.
"Us & Them"ing is a consequence of objectification. One does not only objectify the Other but also one's self. Objectification is the process of turning a person, or group into an object, thing, inert and dead. Something that can be manipulated and bought and sold, judged and dismissed, but aside or used for one's own purpose. It does not have to be considered beyond what can "it" do for me? How can "I" use "it"?
The concept of an "us" as an "it" becomes clearer when one thinks about privilege, especially the ones that are not so easily identified. The "us" of white people; the "us" of ablebodied people; the "us" of relatively more money/power people; the "us" of the "in the moment" cool people; the "us" of the advocate for the little people; etc. One can use the objectifying look at one's own self identity to 'move and shake' and use that place to get what one needs without respecting the "other" let alone one's own innate subjective self.
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This is not what i started out to write. HA! Another aspect of blogs is their ability to allow one to go places unexpected. What i did want to write about was the plan to do a soft launch of the Indiegogo Campaign today. Waiting around any longer to get input/feedback from other folks in the "Reply All"/Care group is not worth it. What there is and how it is is just going to have to be good enough for now. Maybe someone who reads this can give some feed back!
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